15 June, 2011

I feel like a zombie..

Sometimes, I hate being in school for art because I have to try and critique art that I have seen done better by 2nd graders. Yes, I realize that is mean to say, but at the same time.. I don't express those opinions in class. Then again, I truly HAVE seen second graders do better than some of the stuff I see in classes. How do people make it that far into art school with that kind of skill? Then again.. *sigh* I don't know. I have high standards and I will work on a piece for 8+ hours if I feel that it needs 8+ hours while others post theirs all at the first day of the week and the lack of effort shows..

On top of that, i feel like I need to fall over and die. I've let the oldest sleep in my bed the past two nights and so I've been on the couch and have not rested well at all..
I will not be going to therapy this week (didn't last week either) because only two of the kids got their approval appointments for Therapy and I have no one to watch them.

I'm tired, I feel hot, I am sweaty, I hurt, I have a headache, and on Friday I am FINALLY getting those two broken wisdom teeth gone!

On top of it all, I want to run away and hide from everyone because... my poor fiddler crab died yesterday! I was hoping he was just molting. but no... he still has not moved and it has been over 24 hrs.. I am devastated.. yes.. over a little silly crab..

but I tried so hard to take care of him so well I read up all sorts of things and was so so so careful with feeding, cleaning, brackish water, keeping the cat away from him and.. and... now he's gone.. Only four months with him. :( I am just... heart broken..



  1. Well, look on the good side of things, when they pull those teeth you're get some good pain pills. I know I shouldn't say that, but whatever, that's the way I think.
    For reals, I am so sorry "stuff" is still continuing to go on with the kids. I guess the crab is sad also--sounds like a symbolic thing. I'm sorry though.
    I wish there was something I could do to help--seriously!

  2. How did your sons doctor appointment go? Is he still "just a boy" or are they going to do something to help him?

  3. I'm glad to hear your son will finally get help. My oldest daughter has ADHD so I know how hard it can be.